One of these months I may actually remember to post my TUSAL jar on time. I have a reminder on my phone and everything… *sigh* The jar’s filling up nicely this year – much faster than I remember in years past. :) The WIPocalypse is definitely working for me on the progress front, and although my number of finishes is still a little lower than I’d hoped by this point in the year, I’m very happy with the progress I’ve made – and the TUSAL jar’s just one of the things that shows what I’ve done!
July has been speeding by so quickly! Lots of things happening on the life front, and although a couple in particular have me a bit nervous, I really can’t say that any of the things happening are bad – in fact, at least a couple are promising to be quite good. They’re still in the works and in early stages, so I can’t jinx them. But with how stressed and freaked out I’ve been in recent “real life” posts, I did want to do a little update and say that yes, it’s getting better, at least in the short term. Of the things I can talk about safely at this point, here are the updates…
Work - Work has calmed down a little, and although it may just be a summer lull, I’m grateful for whatever breather I can get. Due to the nature of how I’m assigned in my administrative duties, there’s always going to be some nasty pulling between my managers for my time, and I understand that. It just got to the point of stupidity last month, and I think reality finally hit one of the worst culprits of stress for me when I flat out said I was beyond sick of it, burnt out and was starting plans to look elsewhere if the situation didn’t improve because it literally was starting to take a physical toll on my health. I was asked to give a rundown of my normal workload and how it broke down. Four pages single spaced later (with bullets), I think there was a bit of a wake-up call of why I’ve been so burnt out. So yeah, things have calmed down a little. I’m under no illusion that it may not stir back up again and spiral out of control, but at least now there’s a list that I can revise and use to remind folks.
Friendship Circles - A toxic person was finally completely shucked from Erich’s and my lives this month (I alluded to this person months ago in my recap of 2011, although I mentioned the person in the plural sense in error back then). If I can give one piece of advice to anyone – be incredibly careful who you open up to in moments of complete vulnerability. I made a grave mistake in judgment regarding who to speak with in confidence in January of 2011 – a mistake so blatant that I’d realized my error before 24 hours had passed. Said person abused my trust completely by twisting that vulnerability and using it with intention to further rip me to shreds, deny doing so, and then 18 months later, reinforced how grave an error my judgment was when the person decided spread that information – spoken to them in confidence regarding topics only relevant to Erich and my marriage - to 3rd parties who had no reason or purpose in knowing them. (and not only that, but one of the known 3rd parties is currently struggling with a sudden family loss, and should not have been burdened with this). Thankfully said 3rd parties came to Erich and I with everything, and the betrayer’s plan (whatever the hell it was) backfired.
I’m so relieved that Erich stands in agreement with me on this one – the person is gone and will never be welcomed back into our lives. It’s an annoying wound that can now heal (and the lesson has been learned).
Home – A few months ago, I decided it was long past time for me to start getting into some sort of a sanity routine when it comes to cleaning the house. I don’t need my house spotless by any means, but I needed some sort of a system so I could get stuff done, keep on top of it, and at least feel like I was keeping the house under control. Erich and I work on house upkeep a bit differently – his strength and interest (for lack of a better word) lies in projects. Mine is more on keeping up on the standard house maintenance stuff. In theory, that should work to our advantage, right? Well, it wasn’t. I needed a system.
Somewhere along a random conversation, the website Fly Lady was brought up. The site’s a little cheesy and overly happy-cheery for me, but the advice and planning are actually pretty damn practical. Rather than try to get everything done at once, it focuses on very small jobs (either by a number of objects or 15 minutes) and breaks the house down into manageable zones. Each week, one specific zone gets focused on – and there are small challenges given to catch up on other stuff, whether in that zone or out of it. I’ve adapted what appeals to me, and left some of the other things aside. So far, so good. The house is significantly less cluttered. The basics are getting done. Is it perfect? Heck no, but I’m feeling much better about it. And less stress regarding house cleaning means less Measi stress overall. I’ve been able to stitch for three weeks without ever feeling guilty about sitting down with a needle instead of doing housework. I honestly can’t recall that happening before.
So yeah – I think wrapping my brain around some of these issues and really pulling them under control has helped a lot. Lots of work to be done still – and I doubt it’s ever done (that’s life, right?). But I do feel much better and much more grounded – which will only help to allow me the energy to work on the other things that I now really need to focus on!
On to the stitching… I’m getting my rotation together for the Olympics starting tomorrow night. I’ll be stitching a Rotation Relay, which means I’ll stitch on each project for only 2 hours before moving to the next one. My personal goal is to get two hours on each of the projects I currently have in WIP/UFO status during the month of August. No finishing plans – I just want to make sure I’ve touched and worked every project I currently have. :) I’ll post another entry tonight with the “pre-Olympics” photos of everything. :)
Off to get work done! Happy Thursday…