I made some progress on my fanfic, but as has been habit the last few weeks… I get a few great ideas which then evaporate as soon as I try to put words to virtual paper. *sigh* Still plugging, but I’m frustrated. And the thing is with this particular project… the 10,000 word limit is not the issue here. Nor is characterization. It’s just progression that’s not working right. And if I’m not satisfied with it, I definitely don’t feel right presenting it.
I’d signed up for the September edition of supportstacie, but I might pull back out of it. I’m just a bit demoralized about my writing and may just need to take a step back. We’ll see. I still have about a month to figure out what’s what. I think the biggest problem I’m having is that I hate feeling irresponsible when it comes to these deadlines. Maybe it’s the journalism degree, maybe it’s just my personality, but I absolutely despise when I’m late on things. Even though I’ve been busy with work and house projects and all, I just feel like an irresponsible git. And what’s happening is that I’m making it even harder on myself because I’m trying to get things done and beating myself up for being so slow at the same time. It’s stupid, and I know it’s stupid… and yet I can’t seem to break myself of the habit.
One way or the other, I won’t quit writing completely. I’m thinking I may just need to do some pressure-free stuff for a while and tinker with some ideas, or start something new. I have to admit that I’m itching to do some cross-stitch, too, but I won’t let myself when I still have obligation fic to write. One way or the other, I don’t plan on writing much this winter at all. I have a bunch of stitching projects in various stages of completion, and I’m feeling the need to get lost with my needle again with no real timetable.
Anyway, we’ll see.
Erich wrapped up the second coat on the walls in the kitchen. Once everything had dried, we determined that it did need an additional coat. All’s now done, and we’re getting the hands-and-knees style floor scrubbing in with the TSP cleaner, but at this point, I may just stick to some basic mopping until the weather cools down. I don’t handle the humidity well at all under normal circumstances, and that kind of heavy cleaning makes me a bit nervous in this weather. Scrubbing the bathroom yesterday had me nearly fainting by the end. 
Needless to say, the rest of the day was spent on the couch right in front of the AC, cooling it. I caught up on my Netflix and took a time out from things. Watched Zodiac, which was pretty good, and then watched the first DVD of Roots, which I’d somehow never seen (which is one of those oh… EVERYONE’S IN THIS miniseries). It’s still odd to see LeVar Burton’s eyes and how bright and expressive they are. Too many years watching ST:TNG, and not enough with Reading Rainbow, apparently.
Ah well… off to a day at reception. Maybe a few more scene tinkerings. I will get this thing posted… I will.
