Another year gone, a new one starting… and I feel like so much time gets lost. I rarely make resolutions for the new year because I feel that by saying them out loud, I tend to jinx them. Instead, I’m making some intentions – and the overall theme is to to some serious self-seeking. For the past ten years or so, I feel like my life has been mostly on hold as I focused on being a working mom, making sure I got at least the basics done every day. Kid fed, laundry washed, dishes done, rinse, repeat…
Covid didn’t help, of course. If anything, it made the blur of everyday life a bit more difficult to do mental checks against what needed to be done vs. what I wanted to do. Since 2020, life has just been chaos as the routines constantly changed, leaving me mentally and often physically exhausted. Like so many people – I’ve gained weight, I’ve had to shelve self-reflection, and I’ve become disconnected from people because I needed the emotional strength just to get through the days.
Life’s settled into a bit of a routine for now, so I’ll be making some efforts to get back on track. Moving more, writing more, attempting to connect more. And most of all, I want to learn how to forgive myself more. I think the baggage of feeling like I’m failing tends to make it more difficult to get started on the things I want – and need – to feel better inside my own body and mind.
It’s time to reclaim the blog – not just WIPocalypse updates, but actual content here. My own stitching, life thoughts, cat silliness, letterboxing, writing letters, and whatever other mayhem seems to spark my creativity.
If you’re along to read the journey… welcome (or welcome back). Please be gentle – because this may get weird. 🙂
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On my list too. Heal. Learn who I am. Be Better. Glad to see you back to blogging.
I think you nailed it on the head about the lack of being able to process things. It’s been two and half years since my dad passed, but I really feel like my grieving process only started about 6-8 months ago. Here’s to hoping we both have a better 2023!
I can relate to so much of what you said in this post. Well, other than that whole wife and mom thing. 😉 Like you, the disruption to my routines over the past three years was super difficult for me. Add in the death of my father due to cancer and the deaths of a few other friends (some Covid-related and others not) over those three years, and my anxiety and depression soared. I’m really hoping to get back to some semblance of “normal” in 2023, including reclaiming my stitching blog as well. I made a whopping two posts during 2022 and those were actually made the same day. 🙄 I think WIPocalypse will be a nice way to at least get me back to posting on a semi-regular basis. Thanks for keeping this challenge going for all these years!! xoxo
I’m sorry you’ve been struggling too. It’s been such a difficult few years for everyone now, and I think we all were in such survival mode that we haven’t been able to process everything that has been happening, whether the larger sad events like losing loved ones, or just the smaller day to day stuff. I hope you’re able to get into a better mindset!